Hi AF

Well....the beginnings of AF. I just went to the dollar store and got a couple tests...of course i would come home and have spotting. LOL its like wearing white shorts, AF is just going to show up as soon as I get either one!

I didn't really think that I was PG...I dont really think that I can get pg (so much for positive thinking) but deep down there was hope.

I went over to the Trouble TTC board and introduced myself. I know that I'm not going thru IUI's or IVFs....but I do like that the women there have been through some of what I have been going thru.....

Its not fair that i am:

nauseous. i'm not fricken knocked up, so go ahead and take that symptom away. ive felt like this for 2 days now and it sucks.

come on AF, i know this is one of your shitty symptoms.

I want to test

but I know that is stupid. I have had cramps for about 24ish hours now....just hurry up AF. I dont know why I always feel that i should POAS, ya know...just in case. It never turns out to be anything except a BFN. Sometimes my eyes trick me and I see a second line, then i blink and its gone. Sucks.

Cramps

I dont expect to get KU or anything, but getting cramps today was still a bit heartbreaking. I have no idea what cycle day i'm on, but my last cycle started around the first of August, so i'm at day 31ish...idk. I have no hope of getting knocked up before surgery, or so I thought, until the cramps hit today.

DH and I have surgery consult on Sept 17...fuck you endometriosis. I hate you. I dont want surgery and we just want to start a family so badly. When I do get KU, I hope its with a boy, because I dont ever want my childs heart to break because of not being able to have a child....